Growing Pains

Sanctification isn’t always a stroll through the park. Lately, I’ve been more acutely aware of indwelling sin in my life—in particular, my prideful disposition to not trust in the providence of God.

Yesterday was filled with little “humbling moments.” I had several short meetings that needed to happen but didn’t; every motorist I got stuck behind apparently thought the far left lane was the “leisure lane”; my interaction with others didn’t always measure up to my expectations. My response to most of these situations was one of anger. Ultimately, my problem wasn’t people or circumstances—my problem was the pride in my heart that bristled at the sovereignty of God overruling my selfish plans.

As I went through my Scripture readings last night, I came to Psalm 32. Verses 8 and 9 spoke directly to my problem:

I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will guide you with My eye.
Do not be like the horse or like the mule,
Which have no understanding,
Which must be harnessed with bit and bridle,
Else they will not come near you.

These verses encouraged and humbled me. To be honest, these little lessons have not been fun. At the same time, this whole situation is funny because it is in direct answer to prayer (as I mentioned in my “Hidden Joy” post). When you ask the Lord to help you grow in humility, He doesn’t immediately place a glowing halo on your head—He shows you how ugly your pride really is and then magnifies His grace by bringing about change.

In the meantime, I feel like making several more snowballs, throwing them in the fridge for a couple hours and pelting the car of the next motorist that cuts me off.... Yes, there’s a lot of pride in me, but thanks be to God that He’s not through with me yet! Grace has led me safe thus far and grace will lead me home.